14........The number of months we are waiting for my Husband and their Daddy to return from Iraq. In some ways time has flown by because I have kept myself busy with 5 children (VERY busy I might add), had a baby, and volunteered with Girl Scouts and the local Spouses Club. So much has happened in these 14 months!
Soldiers return from deployments in stages. The time has come....soldiers are returning and being reunited with their family. This should be a happy time, but it hasn't turned out that way for me. I know I don't really have any MORE stress now than I have for the last 13 months, but it seems that every little thing is magnified right now. I should be happy for the soldiers and their families that have returned thus far, but instead it seems to make me grumpy.......I still have close to a month before mine will be home. He is one of the last returning and I so wish he wasn't!
I'm done with playing the role of a single parent to 5 children! It is not a job I want or wish upon anyone.......However, I don't think I had the worst end of the deployment. I have to remind myself that I WAS in a safe environment and not in harms way. I WAS here spending time with our children. I WAS here for all of their birthdays, Christmas, Thanksgiving, New Years, Easter, day trips to various places in Europe, first day of school, Girl Scout events, school activities, soccer games, cheerleading, horse riding lessons, and the list goes on and on. I've seen them grow.....our newborn will be a few days shy of 7 months by the time he sees him again. I've heard all of the cute things they say and do...firsthand. These things are not replaceable and he has missed all of them. Sad.
Anxiously awaiting your return....